Monday, February 26, 2007

Temporarily insane!!!




I can honestly say I really really do enjoy staying at home with my kids. I can't imagine taking them to a daycare and dropping them off only to call and check up all day long. So, what I am about to say needs to be taken with a grain of salt!
MY KIDS ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY!!! We stayed in last Thursday and did the end of the week house work because Dave had the next day off. Then we all went out for the day on Friday... that was the last day I went anywhere, and we all got out of the house! Today is MONDAY! It doesn't seem like a long time, but I have cabin fever after one day! Saturday I wanted to let Dave have a lounge around day so I didn't press to get out. Then the blizzard came. It started to really snow hard! So by afternoon, we were snowed in. Then Church gets canceled, and the Blizzard returns. So there was no outings on Sunday either. Then... we had to take our van in for some safety repairs and they inform me today (today is the day I thought I would break down and work for 50 cents an hour just to get away!) that they can't guarantee my van even by this weekend. I really feel bad for that poor man who called with the news. Zech is screaming because mamma won't blow bubbles for the next 20 hours, Lily is screaming because she hasn't learned to just FALL ASLEEP!!! And the phone rings with this horrid news.
I think Zech gets cabin fever just as bad, so he starts to get more and more wild as the hours tick and he is still in the house. He wants a snack, but can't decide which one, so no matter what I offer its as if I've offered him poison. Lily wants a nap, but has fought it so much that she can't seem to get comfy and just close her eyes and fall asleep. And I am just trying my hardest to be the best mom I can be at that moment when two kids are screaming their heads off and I can't help them at all.
I keep my cool, never raised my voice (praise God for His help) and leave Zech to find his own snack (which prompts him to make up his mind very fast!) And sway Lily just an extra second faster and all is calm. So I call the guy back, trying to figure out what I can do about our van. He offers a loaner and apologizes as he promises me he will do the best he can to get it to me before Thursday.
Hallelujah, I have a car, we're going out tomorrow! It's play date day!!! And I will forget how crazy these kids make me! I do love them so much anyway, how can I not!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

My Photography


I have been told lately that my photography is really good. I want to belive that, and I want to feel more confident in what I love to do. Maybe I feel self-conscience about it because there are professional photographers in my family... I did not attend school, nor have I even read a book about it. But still, I have never taken my kids to portrait studios because I know I can take their pictures at home for free, and when they are happy and ready, not when I pre-scheduled them. I think I am getting sick of not having any confidence in them. I mean look at some...
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I can't capture that at SEARS or JC Pennys... is it possible I just might have talent. Well, maybe I can admit it to no one on here, just you other bloggers who don't really know me. But, maybe someday I will be able to really sit back and say, I am a talented photographer, and I like it!
Or is it that I get lucky with such photogenic kids? There I go again... I guess the pictures can speak for themselves.
Previous Post

This was actually published back in August 06, but I thought it was in the wrong category, so I cut and copied it in here. Here it was...


Well, I have a myspace, so on occasion, I post on there. But I wanted to start something for my little blessings! I keep a small journal for them, but don't always get to it. I thought maybe starting a blog would help me keep my thoughts down for them. When I was growing up ( I am sure every kid will hear that once or twice in their lifetime) paper and pen was all there was. Maybe a typewriter could capture thought... but my kiddos? No, they get a blog! (whatever that even stands for!) So here is the start! It is August (oh man, I don't even know!!!) Oh yeah, August 10th, 2006. I used to work outside the home and I had to write the date everyday at least once. Now... I am lucky if I know what day of the week it is! But anyway, I am 27 years old. I have Zechariah, who is 16 months, and the most amazing child I have ever seen! He has such total extremes to his personality! He can be so sweet, and calm, yet throw the meanest, nastiest, wildest fits of any kid I have ever seen! He copes well to change, and is quick to learn (just as I learn) how to deal with those outbursts. It is completely amazing! His intensity will someday turn into the most wonderful personality trait he has! He kisses on me, and loves me, is excited to see me, but if things seem to go wrong at the wrong moment, he can hit me! How is that? I will never understand, but we are working through it! And praise God, the loving comes WAY more often than the hittings! And nothing ever changes about the way we love each other! Its amazing! So to sum him up in one word... I guess by what I've just said... AMAZING! The experience, the learning, the challenges, the rewards!!! AMAZING! Just when you least expect it, he amazes you more! He has brought me into motherhood, which should I sound redundant? IS AMAZING! So that is his adjective for now! I am also 6 months pregnant with my daughter. She will bring more experiences, more learning, and more challenges... but most definately more rewards to our group! She seems much calmer than Zech did... which I am praying is part of her personality! I am so completely excited about her arrival. She should be here sometime around November 17th... We get to plan it, but haven't made it definate yet! She already has her daddy worried! He talks to Zech about protecting her and treating her with respect and dignity! He tells me that I need to be sure to get the longer skirts at the store even for the 0-3 month size. I tell him it doesn't matter, he says "It sets a precedent!" So we foresee a pretty protective DAddy!!! But, man! I can't wait! I am a stay at home mom. Something I have always dreamed about, and although we don't have everything we think we "want" materialistically, we have a bright young man that is learning in our home by his mommy and daddy! So I can't ask for much more. God has definately blessed us by allowing us to do this for our family! I am a wife. Have been for almost 6 years. It is so wonderful! Without Dave, I don't know where I'd be! He has faithfully lead our family into God's will, and I have no doubt he always will! It is a wonderful thing to share life's "life" with your best friend! We are youth pastors. It is quite the challenge, but we are a family called by God! And there is nothing more honorable than that! I love being in ministry, and I can't wait to see whats around the bend for us! So, here's the first blog... Kiddos, I love ya, and I hope MOmmy can find some time to keep this going for ya! I will share it all!!! Just for you, guys!!!

Friday, February 16, 2007

MY LIFE:


It's so funny how ever since I was WAY younger my dream was to be a Stay at home mom. To raise my kids myself. And as many dreams we have when we are younger seem to not turn out the way we intended... its just not so with this one. My life is almost exactly the way I thought it would be. Dave is a pastor, we live in a parsonage, I am a stay at home mom of TWO kids. We wake rather early, and only about 3 hours after Lily's last feeding, have breakfast. Zech goes and watches his "shows" while I clean up the kitchen and bedrooms. Our goal is TV off by 9pm and house clean. Doesn't always happen that way, but hey, I have a three month old, routines take time.
We've joined play groups and worked the mall into our days, yep, this is the life.
I've really started trying to take more pictures. I really enjoy it. I love seeing my kids laugh and getting to capture it on camera. Even if I have to fight with Zech to sit still for a single picture.
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My life is turning out the way I thought it'd be. We don't have a ton of money, or wonderful fancy cars, or an elaborate material life, but I've got my devoted husband, not just to me, but to GOD, I've got my son and daughter, with the agreement we will have more. I've got family close by that I see often (something I never thought I cared about!) And I've got Christ!
My day is full of great and wonderful things. Play time, reading time, crazy physical activity time, quiet time, nap time, snack time... But even better is the devotion time we've established with Zech. I look forward to it every night. When he finds a way to climb into bed, cuddles up and listens to the Bible story. Then we point things out in teh pictures tries to say new words (still don't know how JESUS became SHANTI and how HOLY SPIRIT became HOLY another word we don't say! But we are working on it!) But he bows his head and prays with me. He mentions his daddy and sister and mamma in his prayers, then ends with the sweetest AMEN! It makes me so proud. And makes me feel like if my whole day isn't perfect, I have ended it doing one thing right! Pointing my child towards Christ. My sole purpose as a mother!

Friday, February 02, 2007

Bad Motherhood day!



I vowed to never scream at my children (or their father for that matter!). I now pray that Zech will not remember that I broke that vow! Today was not a great day for me! My house just needed a few things done to it to make it the way it should be. So I don't know if the pressure of getting that done mixed very ill with Zech's bad behavior... or if I just need more sleep overall.
He had such a large screaming fit again while I was feeding Lily. Its like he knows I can't get up and do anything, so he pushes every button possible. Well, buttons pushed is not an excuse for looking a tiny 2 year old in the face and screaming. And thats just what I did. I didn't yell bad things at him. Ididn't call him names or hurt him physically... I just yelled! LOUD!!! Then I walked him to his room. We eneded up having to sit outside his room and hold the door closed. Then finally this tiny gorgeous boy comes out and hugs me and says "sorry, mamma"... No, Mamma is sorry! There is never an excuse to yell. No matter what happens, and no matter how mad I get, I am the adult right? I set the example, right? I am shaping this boy's (and with Lily in myarms too) demeanor. What to I say? "Zech, use your words!" As I throw mine out the window and scream!

So, I am sorry, buddy!! And to Lily who was just trying to enjoy her milk. I just pray you remember all the things Mamma does right and quickly forget the many I do wrong.
I love you both!!

How can I truly scream at this gorgeous thing????

Colossians 3:17

If your ganna do something, DO IT RIGHT! Glorify HIM!